Also I accidentally bought double the amount of fabric I needed for a little project I’m doing.

Laters money.

(when I’m finished I’ll post photos and maybe someone will pay me to make another one?)

I think I just had an off day.


maddy young - ink on paper, 2014

Tonight I ran into the person I am most afraid of in this world, right outside the supermarket. I was stood up after typing a shoelace and they were right in front of me.

I don’t know if they realised who I was, but for me it was an instant anxiety attack.

I went and hid in the toilets and my heart was pounding and my body was shaking and I felt so pathetic. I hate that a person that I haven’t even talked to in like 5 years can have that effect on me. It’s not like they can hurt me any further, but still I felt so afraid.

I waited for 15 minutes before working up the courage to actually walk into Woolies, and even then the whole time I was in the store I was on edge and trembling (I feel like the deli person could sense my stress). It made me half an hour late to bible study and it’s just so stupid.

Sometimes I trick myself into thinking that I’ve got my head relatively under control, and then I’m shown that it’s actually the opposite. *sigh*

I hope that I don’t have to go through that again any time soon.

I applied for no less than 20 jobs today (I genuinely put effort into all of them) and some kind soul took the time to send me an email at 12.38am to tell me that I didn’t fit their criteria.

Job hunting - crushing your self esteem, one rejection at a time.

Is it dumb to get a black velvet pinafore at the beginning of Spring?

I want one, and dangerfield has nice one on sale but I feel like it’d be smarter to get denim but they’re all hell expensive. 

Hello meaningless crisis at 11pm on a Monday.


Tree Shadows by artchang on Flickr.

January 2015 is already too full and busy and I feel overwhelmed just thinking about it.

2 tours with 3 of my all time favourite bands (1 unannounced) - I have to go to multiple shows. My church’s youth camp which is the biggest event of the year for our youth community. A huge family reunion for my grandparent’s 80th in Melbourne. And then there’s all those friend parties and get aways that happen around the public holidays.

Which leads into February and my 2 year wedding anniversary.

Plus all the usual life stuff (hopefully I’ll have a job by then haha).

Seriously though, I might break.

I’ve been waiting to see both of these bands again pretty much since the day after I saw them play last time…. and now they’re coming together.

So please ask yourself: What would I do if I weren’t afraid? And then go do it.
Sheryl Sandberg (Lean In: Women, Work, and the Will to Lead)

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Just survived an unannounced ‘drop in’ from my Mum. Feeling invincible.

Purple hair, don’t care (you can only really tell in the sunlight but that’s part of the fun). 🌷


Keeping The Same Tabs Open For 9 Days Straight Because They Contain Information Relevant To Tasks You’re Too Lazy To Complete - A novel by me

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